Thursday, August 21, 2014

Interminable Distance

I woke up from a thicket of strange dreams where you were there and you were there and you were there. Feeling as though I had just come an interminable distance in those moments between sleeping and waking. But the feeling didn't leave as this reality settled back into place. Rather, it grew. In the last three years I have indeed traveled further than I had imagined possible. Not physically. The paltry distance of 3,000 miles is nothing. But the person I was, with all her dreams and hopes, her desires and beliefs about herself and the world around her... She would never have seen me coming.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

A thought on the epidemic of violence

Remember that 16 year old who died last year in London cause someone knocked her out playing the game? Or those three kids that killed that homeless man back in September. Just look at those kids in Tennessee who tortured, raped and murdered that couple earlier this year. What about the kids in Steubenville who raped that girl at multiple parties in front of witnesses and posted pictures and tweeted about it, the ones who got away with a slap on the wrist. It makes me sick what passes for entertainment these days. I don't think it sounds remotely fun. But apparently a lot of kids do. Many of these incidents (knockout, rape, shootings, etc) are perpetrated by kids. Aged 22 and younger... It's extremely disturbing. Kids are being raised without empathy these days. They don't see other people as being real like them. To them we are all extras in the movie of their life. And as the main character, they are inherently owed certain things. It scares me watching this mentality in so many. I don't blame the video games. I believe it's the lack of real human connection in general. We have an incredible level of access to human knowledge without actually having to learn directly from human beings. It used to be kids were taught by their elders what to expect, how to act, how to create and contribute to a community. Now they are being raised by television and movies that glorify fame and fortune for minor accomplishments. They are taught by porn that women must be hairless and perform to please the man without regard to her own enjoyment and that "no" means "yes". They are taught by video games that violence doesn't have real consequences. Is it really any wonder that there are so many young sociopaths out there these days? Personally I believe none of these mediums on their own would actually cause this behavior directly if they came with real conversations from respected authority figures. But here is where we hit a snag. We as a society used to revere our elders because they were a wealth of knowledge and experience, because they had made it so far. They had earned respect. Now technology is considered more important in our society than more worldly forms of knowledge, like skill trades, and it is evolving so quickly that the younger people have an easier time keeping up with it. So now rather than wanting to appear older to show knowledge and garner respect, people want to look younger. We are a society terrified of aging. That has turned the balance of power on its head. Is it any wonder that kids no longer show respect to parents or teachers? And here is the real kicker. The part that makes me want to throw up my hands and scream or pull my hair out. The people I've met who have achieved our society's current idea of success... They're generally the least happy people I know. Oh they may seem alright, but you don't have to look too deep or too far to see the signs of a deep seated dissatisfaction and emptiness. Look at the celebrities and politicians, the CEOs and the like. They have reached the heights of our society's success scale, and yet they fill their lives with drugs and sex and thrill seeking and crazy religious cults because they have no real faith in anything greater than themselves and their current power and so they feel lost or bored with life. Actually, a trend I have noticed is that the further away one is removed from the tasks of growing or raising or hunting their own food and preparing it, the less fulfilled they really seem. In removing yourself from the act of producing food, you are removing yourself from the natural rhythm of life that the rest of life on Earth still dances to. No wonder so many of us feel isolated, even in heavily populated cities. I think if we continue the way we are, relying so heavily on technology and not teaching real physical trades that involve discipline and honed skill, if we continue to eliminate things like handwriting and languages (the very basics of communication!), we run the risk of losing our species' humanity completely in the next generation or two.

Friday, September 7, 2012

New Coast, New Adventures

I've been living in New Hampshire for a month now. It's interesting how sometimes it feels as though this is perfectly normal and there is no real adjustment. I've working full time. I'm nocturnal. There's not a whole lot different there. And yet sometimes I'm struck by how much I took for granted while living in SF. I find myself craving pho or sushi or real Mexican food. Mango sago and jasmine milk bubble tea, how I miss you. All the organizations and venues whose mailing lists I was on in SF continue to send me updates on all the amazing things I'm missing out on. And yet, as the weather cools and the leaves begin preparing for fall, I can feel that excitement that autumn air brings. I find myself anticipating hikes through colorful woods and hot cider. Sailing with hot tea in the thermos. The aurora borealis. The reemergence of my sweaters from my closet. And, hopefully, visits from a few friends with whom I can share some New England adventures.


Monday, August 1, 2011

When Sleep Walks

Sleep has been elusive. Time to stalk it.
On the plus side, I'll probably be painting more again.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Late Night Kitchen Experiment Success!

So this was a soup experiment that I think turned out rather well:

Heat your oven to 400 F and put in two potatoes and two sweet potatoes.

Sautee a white onion in coconut oil and curry powder, add water and lentils and quinoa and let those cook. Remember, quinoa expands. A lot.

Take the potatoes and sweet potatoes out of the oven when they're mostly cooked through; cut them into large chunks and add them to the pot.

Either add raw broccoli or in a separate small pot blanch the broccoli so it's bright green, then add it to the pot. For those unfamiliar with blanching, it's when you drop it into already boiling water and then drain the boiling water and run cold water over it immediately.

When the soup is done, stir in some fresh kale and serve!